Friday, 31 December 2010

Minutes to midnight.

15 minutes to 2011. The unlikeliest of times to be writing a blog post, especially after not writing for ages.
I'm too lazy to write about my thoughts for the year or actually analyze it. Because time has moved so haphazardly I could barely keep track when the year started and when it ended. 365 days. Seemed very long this time. Probably because too much happened for me to be able to keep track of what the hell is happening. Sitting here now its all just a complete jumble, a mad blur. So okay, I won't talk about it.

Today I watched Alice in Wonderland on T.V, it's one of my favourite stories. I just love Lewis Carrol. And I finally watched Eat Pray Love and I adore Julia Roberts. Its a beautiful peaceful movie. My type of thing, sort of. I also watched Inception and its so brilliant I just couldn't get enough of it. It is complex but not terribly.

I would say I had a nice year. Not the freaking best possible but that's okay, there have to be good times and bad times. It's all part of the journey.

Happy new year. :)

Thursday, 2 December 2010

No I'm still not over Harry Potter.

I watched Deathly Hallows part 1 today. After a long wait. I was dying to watch it. And of course I loved it. But what is sad about the movies is that somehow you don't get the essence of the book. They didn't really distort too many details this time. But the main action is in the next part so this one felt like it lacked that punch.

What I loved: The way Harry, Ron and Hermione have grown together, how they've developed. There's a lot of good bit of acting. Emma Watson looks just lovely. I'm straight but I love her! I liked the styling as well, she looks really cool. Ginny too looks more grown up. And somehow I've loved Ginny's character right from the beginning and I knew when I read book one that she was going to develop as a very important character. Maybe I relate to her.
And Bellatrix. She is a wild crazy maniac and is sexy that way.
The scene at the beginning where Hermione is at home and she erases her parents memories - 'obliviate', and she fades away from all the pictures - is to me the most touching scene in the movie.
The locations where they camp are just so beautiful. They're one of the best things about the movie, all these amazing places captured so beautifully.
The part where Harry and Hermione dance is the sweetest scene ever. Harry is a horrible horrible dancer. But its incredibly beautiful how after Ron leaves he tries to cheer her up and in a lot of parts it looks like they have developed deeper feelings for each other but that is also because they're all alone and have only each other.
Then the locket scene and the kiss was something I was looking forward to watching from when I heard to was there and it was just what you call primitve and animalistic, reminiscent of Adam and Eve.
And the torture scene. Hermione and Bellatrix were both brilliant there, Hermione helpless, screaming with pain and Bellatrix, evil and wild, holding her down.
I also loved the animated narration of the Tale of the Three Brothers.
Also the ending to the first part was really well done.
But Voldemort looks to nice. He's not evil and remorseless enough. Thats what disappointed me.

And otherwise - I'm watching Masterchef Australia and I just love it even though I don't understand the food sometimes. Speaking of which, I had this lovely New York Cheesecake flavour gelato which is nothing like anything I've ever tasted before, it had this beautiful mingling of a slight hint of cheese with a tangy blueberry syrup in a very rich creamy base. Just beautiful food. Since I started watching Masterchef I've gotten into this habit of critiquing food when I eat it, observing flavours and textures and how they go together and trying to explain it. And today's gelato was really worth talking about!

Thats all for now. Off to sleep!

Friday, 29 October 2010

Lemon meringue pie screwed up. Actually the meringue texture got screwed. But the pie crust I did well for the first time. Last time I made apple pie it was awful and uncooked. I'm tired. I spent about 4 hours messing up the kitchen and trying all kinds of innovative methods of mitigating cooking disasters. Which seem to have worked, mind you. I grated lemon peel for the first time in my life(I didn't know it could be used). I liked the tiny green shreds in the little bowl :).
I am so tired. Cold apple juice is so soothing :).

Wednesday, 27 October 2010


Since I got back from my trip, I've been seized by these sudden cravings to cook something specific. Okay, food cravings are normal, but cooking cravings?(well I don't know what else to call them). 
Yesterday it was pancakes. I suddenly wanted with all my life, to make pancakes and eat them with maple syrup But maple syrup is hard to get here so I'd make do with honey. Or even better, make some sort of a sauce myself. So I spent the afternoon surfing sites for recipes. Thats something I really love doing. It gives me a high, figuring out how to cook something. And anyone who has had a strong craving for anything will get the feeling. It was driving me mad! I felt so empty and light headed and just dizzy and really sad and angry because I couldn't make them.  

And today it was baked potatoes. Again I spent a greater part of my day trying to find the best recipes and the best way to grill or bake potatoes. But alas, no potatoes. And circumstances in my house are barely suitable for cooking, since theres usually always something going on in the kitchen. And again I was being driven mad by this intense desire to cook. Took me a while to calm down. 

I've become so obsessed with food and cooking, maybe a little too obsessed. I spend most of my free time reading recipe books or surfing recipes on the internet or thinking of ways to improvise on things I can already cook. I even download wallpapers of pretty dishes! In fact my current phone wallpaper is apple cider(picture to the right). I think its such a beautiful art, how flavours, textures and tastes intertwine in subtle ways, how every step transforms what you are cooking into what you want to eat. I just wish I got more opportunities to cook. 

Wednesday, 6 October 2010

Smells like pujo spirit :D

I'm so excited. And so is everyone else. And it absolutely sucks going to college and attending classes and I am absolutely frustrated with doing graphs I wish I had a graph assistant, like someone who would do my graphs for me. But just a few more days and then fun fun fun fun fun!!
I'm packed with plans every day I'm here and then I'm flying off to mumbai (I'm pretty sure I'll return from there looking like a football, in fact I almost resemble one now, irregular gym doesnt work). I'm looking forward to more shopping ( I always do!).
There's this feeling you get, you call it 'pujo is in the air' and the atmosphere is just buzzing with everyone's excitement and theres so much energy all around. Its going to be fun this year! And I'm looking forward to mumbai actually, I always have a great time there and I don't mind a change once.
The quiz is finally happening tomorrow and I don't have high hopes at all, I'm just hoping to go enjoy it. :)
I have a few more episodes of death note left to watch but I can't find time to watch them because of all the graphing I'm stuck with x-(.

Anyway happy pujo to everyone, I don't know when I'll end up posting again!

Thursday, 9 September 2010

Falling into Infinity

Life is such a nightmare now. With exams and everything. And we're dealing with a lot of infinities everywhere(thats what it seems like now) and somehow I felt like the title I can't really explain why.
My plans for after exams. (I make a lot of these plans but forget all about them after exams and I end up just getting bored and wasting a lot of time):

Getting a haircut.
Shopping at New Market.
Trying new places to eat.
Reading Breaking Dawn.The whole series is crap honestly but I've watched Twilight and New Moon both of which are depressing movies but has 2 extremely hot guys so its worth watching an otherwise stupid movie just for the eye candy. Its actually funny once you get over the extreme mushiness that makes you cringe.(Makes me cringe atleast). But still I want to know what happens.
Okay go ahead, kill me, I know lots of my best friends reading this are dying to kill me. :P
But they can't even get infinitessimally close to Harry Potter. Yes I'm still a Harry Potter fan. Dying to watch Deathly Hallows.
Reading all the Agatha Christies I can get hold of which I haven't already read.
Watch lots of rom-coms/chick flicks. I love those.
Get new music!! Completely new music!
Write more. Try to atleast.
Go to the gym. Really. I will this time.
Cook. Not just desserts. ;-)

Friday, 6 August 2010

11pm coffee

Everything I do is totally messed up now - eating sleeping studying everything. Like most other days I got back at around 6, went straight off to sleep, woke up at 10 in a really irritated mood(that happens to me when I sleep and wake up at bad times). Plus my parents aren't home yet so I've got to manage things and my legs and cheek muscles are aching after today's practical class[approximately 4 hours of standing and sucking liquid up a glass tube with a big bulb in the middle where liquid just stubbornly refuses to rise no matter how hard you suck) so I barely feel like walking around or talking at all.

I'm not getting a teeny bit of studying done either with all the pre-freshers excitement and the general exhaustion at the end of the day(described above) which is really scaring me. Though my laziness and sleep craving is a big factor. I am one person who just cannot do without sleep. I cannot function at all if I'm sleep deprived and I don't think its cool to be sleep deprived because its not, I mean its stupid to think its cool. Though its absolutely necessary sometimes.

And I'm also scared of the fact that I'm not all that interested in chemistry anymore, it feels like I'm dragging myself through it. Maybe because of the summer project I did I got a taste of what I really really want to do and chemistry is kind of not in the picture that much, though of course its necessary. Oh and I didn't even post anything in my new blog. I just seem to have lost all the enthusiasm for going to college, I just have to drag myself there every day and it doesn't help that classes are getting really tough. I think all that first-year excitement has worn off. Badly.

Well I'm done with my coffee and lemon cream biscuits. And I'm going to get into trouble about not eating dinner again. :-(

Saturday, 3 July 2010

Back to college (not!) :(

I missed the first three days of 2nd year because of a toe injury (I banged my foot on the sofa quite hard resulting in an enourmous red swollen toe). Its sad because I was really looking forward to going to college on the first day and terrorizing the juniors(no, really). I'm a bit too excited about finishing 1st year I guess.

So I'm spending the day at home searching for recipes. I love to cook. I want to make caramel pudding and pasta but caramel sounds pretty tricky but I want to try anyway. After a year of experience in the chemistry lab caramel shouldn't be that much of a problem, after all its just a polymerization process. Which is why I want to make it. And I'm not much of a sweet lover anyway so I hardly end up eating any of the sweet dishes I make. But I like making them. I made a chocolate bread pudding once and it was quite nice. But I'm tired of chocolate in everything.

So I'm home for a pretty long weekend with nothing to do. Monday is a strike, thats disgusting cuz I'll have to wait another whole day to go to college. :(

Sunday, 20 June 2010

OMG so much fun!

Had the awesomest party in a long time! 
Somuchfun somuchfun somuchfun!!!!!!!

So we went to Riju's place to jam and his jam room didnt have a fun and didnt have enough plug points to make room for a table fan so me, Neo, Riju and Krishno ended up making music in the tiny room in the heat dripping with sweat but who cares we had such an awesome time! And I loved beating the hell out of his drums as well. Not every day I get to do that :P.
And then we ate lots of biryani and watched a movie and played poker and Krishno has become so addicted to it he exhibits withdrawal symptoms if he doesnt play. :P
And the jokes. I laughed so much I've become thinner. 

What a day! I'm still high on the fun! :D
Oh and I finally bought new shoes too! 

Wednesday, 2 June 2010


I think I'm busier than I can handle. But I'm sort of liking it.
Project has started off pretty well and yes I am being able to roughly understand whats going on(though majorly thanks to wikipedia). Haven't gotten down to any cooking yet. Brother is pestering me to make brownies so I'll have to do that when I get time.
In a while probably I'll be writing about my project in my new blog, I'll post the link once I actually write something. Its going to be specifically for science related posts. More of an attempt at organizing thoughts on something - I have these streams of thoughts which take pretty interesting turns so I thought I should try to organize them into something presentable. And I'd like to write about new, interesting things I learn. Inspirations : James D. Watson and of course, Feynman.
I'm not much of a physics fan but Feynman is just brilliant, I love the way he writes and makes physics fun and beautiful even to people like me who wouldn't go within a mile of a physics textbook if I could help it.

So anyway, lets see when I can start writing. And the pasta and french fries will come up sometime too.

Sunday, 30 May 2010


Vacations started!
I've got the ingredients for pasta, I'm going to make some. And french fries too.
I'll be starting my undergrad associateship project from tomorrow. They work in structural genomics but I don't exactly know much about it so it should be interesting. I'm looking forward to going there and learning some cool stuff and maybe meeting some people.
And theres a music workshop coming up too, which I'll be attending. And probably more of them over the next two weeks.
And I'm going to read a lot of books, I'm thinking of re-reading the Harry Potter series, theres this familiarity about them I love, this good old world I can sink into. And also I've got The Witch of Portobello by Paulo Coelho.
And I'll have to meet my friends too or they'll kill me.
So I'm pretty much too packed this summer!

Wednesday, 26 May 2010

Purple skies and lightning. Rain lashing on the windowpane forcefully but steadily, blurring out the world.
Turbulent wind whipping the trees.

Rain is irresistibly poetic.
Makes me feel like Porcupine Tree. Piano Lessons..

"I remember piano lessons
now everything seems clear
you waiting under streetlights for dreams to disappear"..

Friday, 21 May 2010

Candy splash! ~ Bright summery plans :)

What I will to do this summer:

Go to the gym. I have to, absolutely. 
 Work on my summer project at the biophysics division, SINP.
 Buy a decent pair of shoes.
 Play the sitar a lot.
 Get more coral pink, yellow and lime green things. Candy colours! :).
 As you can see from the picture I am obsessed with candy colours. They're so happy and bright!
 Actually shop at gariahat and new market. In a planned way and not buy absolutely useless things because they look nice. Which is what I usually end up doing. :P
 Cook! As much as I can since I won't get to do much of that when college starts.
 Go to the terrace every evening and stare at the sky changing colour.
 Maybe write a bit.
 Read a lot of books. Watch a lot of movies. Especially Julia Roberts ones :). 
 Play chess! Haven't done that in ages! 
Just go out a lot. Do some proper photoshoots. Studio style. Try to focus a bit on photographing people, I've done a lot of nature already. 

 Well, thats the general idea. :P
Somehow I always come up with the most fantastic of plans during the exams which I forget all about after them and I don't end up doing much. :P

Friday, 16 April 2010

So I think life looks a bit more sensible now. I don't have to be a sympathetic liar or a cold blooded ruthless killer. I don't have to be a frustrated teenager screaming at everything. I can just be myself. Look at the world again for what it really is. Maybe I'll still be the selfish self-obsessed over-ambitious person I am but maybe thats the way I get on with life.
You can't always have everything you want. There are compromises. But you need to try to live with it. And while you're living why not make the best of it?
At the end of the day you've got to live for yourself, win the battle for survival and give a damn to the rest of the world.
Lets see what I become. What I grow into. As I walk along alone, the way I want to.

Sunday, 11 April 2010

Levels of frustation are RISING. Tolerance level for anything plumetting drastically.
The heat, the chemistry, the people.
Terrible combination.
Just too many things more than I can worry about. Considering I'm not used to worry about anything at all.
Heh I think I'll just go and read something.

Wednesday, 7 April 2010

Back to college after a five day break. And therefore screwed up eating and screwed up sleeping. :P
And the mad calculus teacher who seems to have gotten even madder. Hasn't stopped saying 'entrigation' (that means integration).
Had honey flavoured gelato. It was weird and very sweet. But its nice to have weird flavours like that.
I am currently obsessed with the song 'Supermassive Black Hole' by Muse. Kickass song, kickass lyrics
"I thought I was a fool for no one..but ooh baby I'm a fool for you.."

Thursday, 25 March 2010

People watching

I like to watch people. Women, more particularly. (No don't worry, I'm straight).  I like to watch how they dress, because it talks a lot about their mentality, their psyche. I find it immensely pleasing to look at someone I would call stylish or well dressed. The reason women are so interesting to watch is because of their unbounded creativity when it comes to dressing. It doesn't mean men aren't well dressed, but its just that they're boring to watch. Men can't be too creative without being branded 'gay'. Poor guys. :P

So I never get bored in a place full of people when I don't know anyone, or even on the street for that matter.
Its very nice to see how people can look nice in the simplest of clothes, but accentuated properly. Or even vice-versa : it takes a lot to carry off very fancy clothes and I admire people who do it without looking too overdone.
For example, I went to an annaprashan today. There was a girl with short hair, wearing a very simple silk blue and silver striped half sleeved kurti with an orange patiala. She wore a chunky necklace with it and mojris. That's an example of understated style that really stands out. And of course, there were the saris. I have a weakness for white-and-gold and off-white colours because they look simple but very elegant.
And then I watch out for little details that make it all complete. A simple pink-and-white cotton salwar, with a cute white hairband. Light blue jeans and a white top with minimalist designing and toenails with light blue and lime green nailpolish. I believe dressing is an art.

Another thing I realized is that our ancestors were brainy when it came to dressing. If you notice, the way people dress in a region is dictated largely by the climate. People wear what's most comfortable in the weather. Like in Calcutta its crazy hot, and people would rather die than admit it but jeans are just awful for this sort of climate. So maybe its time to realize that there was a logic in wearing Indian clothes. Because salwar kameez are made of much lighter material, and you're also optimally covered to avoid getting burnt by the sun they are much more comfortable. Technically saris and dhotis(for the men) give you ample 'breathing space', suited to the heat. In the northeast, its cold so people wear these thick skirts. Rajasthan is a desert and its very very hot and dry, so they wear free flowing lehengas, cholis or blouses and use their dupattas to protect their heads from the heat and the dust storms.
Thick rough materials like denim and linen were originally worn in colder places. So it doesn't really make much sense wearing them when the sun is causing us to melt. But we love our jeans and can't do without them anymore because we've become so used to wearing them and they're very hardy and practical. And yes, they look great. But I'll probably wear less of them this summer. Lycra leggings, harems, skirts and patialas are the best. :)

Stay Stylish!
Apologies to the guys, most of whom would've found this immensely boring. :P

Wednesday, 17 March 2010

The silent traveller

Open your eyes
Look around, look outside
Give wings to your thoughts and let them fly around you
Growing, till you know its time to let them stretch their wings and fly free.

Step out of the dark room that's been your home
Walk through the world
The expansive open grasslands
The busy city streets and their stoic ways
The buzz of noise
The comforting unfamiliarity
Narrow by-lanes,
The peaceful anonymity
Colourful cobbled streets that twist and turn
Leading you along

Lose yourself in the whirl of colour and sound
Let your mind break free
Listen to your footsteps as you walk
One step at a time,
soaking in the myraid scents of the air you breathe

Find where you've hidden yourself
Savour the silence within you
Relish the solitude the world gifts you
Your own little corner, the space that is yours.

Unlock your mind, let it glimpse the rainbow
You're free to fly and watch the world below.

Monday, 15 March 2010


My head feels like its just going to explode. After a full day at college (including a horrible double physics) I got back home and I've been doing PHYSICS assignment and PHYSICS lab file and more PHYSICS lab file for the past 3 and a half hours so in other words, I am going mad.
No wonder the physics department people are mad. I mean, wouldn't anyone go mad if they had to work on physics the whole day? But they like that I suppose.
I heard a nice new japanese song(well I don't really know if its chinese or japanese or korean, but lets assume its japanese anyway :P ). Its called Fushugi Yugi. :P
Also, realization is gradually dawning that midsems are nearby and that there is a certain subject called mathematics which I don't know a dot about yet so chances of passing look quite bleak unless I do something about it.
I might just explode one of these days!

Sunday, 7 March 2010

I've finally started studying physical chemistry a wee little bit since sem started. Catalysis isn't too bad, thermodynamics is getting messier by the day and I don't know about real gases yet.
I'm starting with sitar again. I went to my first class today. I first need to work on perfecting my bolkari(stroke techniques) and fingering to regain flexibility.
I finally made cold coffee at home for the first time and it was pretty good, but I'll improvise on it. :D
And I absolutely love my new electric blue nailpolish. Bright colours make me feel good. :)

Current Playlist:
[Most from the Twilight soundtrack.]
Decode - Paramore
I Caught Myself - Paramore
Supermassive Black Hole - Muse
15 Steps - Radiohead
Its Not Over - Chris Daughtry.

Saturday, 6 March 2010

"Its not over.."

"It's Not Over"

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over. 

[Song by Chris Daughtry]

Thursday, 4 March 2010

I haven't slept in a while. I'm scared. I'm trying be alive. I'm trying to do what's best for me. I'm trying to accept that imperfection is a law of the universe and its natural for things to go wrong here and there.
I'm trying to stay sane and not lose myself. I'm trying to iron out the messy bits. I'm hoping like I've never hoped before, that someday everything will be okay. 
Okay. Twilight is getting to me. I'm downloading the soundtrack, I love it.
Bella's Lullaby is beautiful.
I'm going so raving mad with the analytical lab file, its beyond limits of frustration.
So its nice to listen to some new music.

Wednesday, 3 March 2010

Twilight and Daylight.

I finally watched Twilight. To be truthful, its a pretty average movie. Its dark, depressing and haunting and I was stuck in this weird depressive hangover for a whole day after watching it and that's never happened to me before. Its not a happy movie, it won't really make you smile. There are some beautiful scenes, but they don't really feel beautiful. There's this cold apprehension all the time. One of the scenes I loved was the part where Edward plays the piano with Bella sitting next to him.

And yes, Edward Cullen is so crazy hot.

The soundtrack has Leave Out All The Rest by Linkin Park. Its uncanny how it goes in so well with the context of the movie. And I actually listened to the words properly for once.

Anyway I won't be watching Twilight for a while. I'm not much of a movie person anyway.
I'll watch New Moon though.

Tuesday, 23 February 2010


Last night I tried to study organic. Trying to study is actually an event. :|
Today I went to college, endured classes continuously from 10.00 to 4.40. There was KB's abstract algebra I never managed to understand, AR's torturous organic test and the polarimeter which wasn't too bad but it took longer to finish and its really irritating when everyone leaves the lab and your group is the only one working. Especially when its 4.40 and you have lots to do, like go to a party.
Dressed up. Went to the party. Finally got the hang of the hookah. I liked it but its not really anything great. I don't get why its such a big deal. But I learnt to do it anyway. Achievement!
Danced quite a lot. Laughed a lot. Had a great time.
I watched Avatar on sunday and I really liked it.
I'm not hungry and thats weird.
I guess I'm sleepy now. Goodnight!

Friday, 19 February 2010

What the hell.

What the hell am I suppozed to do.
Okay I don't know why I said that, I just wanted to say 'what the hell'.
Yes that is weird. I think this is what happens when you sleep and wake up at totally odd random times. And drink coffee.
And I typed quite a lot today and my fingers are getting cold and tired. Finally sent my article.
Had zinger at KFC.
Our department will finally have a seminar.
I'm not hungry. I'm feeling all fuzzy and dizzy.
Anyway, I need to run to dinner.

Tuesday, 16 February 2010

I think I'm a bit more balanced these days. And I'm beginning to have good friends in college. And I'm being able to manage a lot of things at the same time. And I made nice omlettes on sunday and I quite like multitasking in the kitchen: frying eggs on one side, toasting bread and spreading cheese on them and microwaving them(it melts the cheese and you get a delicious pizza effect) and making coffee at the same time. Without burning anything. :D. Like I feel like a top chef when I do all that ;-). A chicken omlette is on the cards soon. See, actually I'm obsessed with omlettes because they're about the only things you can make without too much trouble but just enough trouble to feel like you're really making something. And besides I don't get much of an opportunity to really make anything else.

Anyway, I need to go eat and then I'll watch Raiders Of The Lost Ark. I've watched only one Indiana Jones movie: Kingdom of the Crystal Skull and I really liked it.

And Polarimeters are pretty cute, like you see two shades of light in the two halves of a semicircle and they keep changing colour as you rotate the tube so its nice actually.

I just heard the song 'phire chalo' by Fossils(its from their new album) and its quite nice. It has a death metal-ish feel in the middle.

Okay, as usual I'm bad with endings, so um bye! :P

Wednesday, 10 February 2010


Tons to do. Lots of thermodynamics and heat engines and problems that turn out to be unsolvable but pretty cool anyway. Also, abstract algebra is really not as horrendous as it seems in class. I guess that's because I basically sleep and don't understand anything.

We have a science seminar coming up and I've never done a seminar before and I'd really like to do one on something I like. I picked biofuels(its not as boring as it was in E.V.E!! I hated E.V.E so I should know!) I really really badly wanted to do a presentation on this really cool stuff I found about curved spacetime. Its about how Newtonian physics gets screwed in curved space. And stuff like wormholes and all. It's probably the first time I'm getting all obsessively excited about something physics-related. I usually run away from that stuff. But its so insanely cool. Okay. Well. I still want to do it. But its like 12.00 am and I won't finish the abstract and plus I don't know a hell lot about general relativity and stuff so if they ask me about it I'll get screwed there and I don't have enough time to read up everything. I could actually.
Weird. Sometimes when I'm obsessed with something I hate letting go of it. I could console myself by saying I'll do it the next time but I'm a really moody person and I may not feel like doing this the 'next time', whenever it is. :(

Sports was sort of fun and the chinese food and black forest sundae after that was awesome.

And I like college and I like the people in my class and I'm having a pretty good social life!

Okay I've chattered enough.
And happy belated rose day. :P

Tuesday, 2 February 2010

"Destination Unknown"

A song I heard recently made me realize what life is all about. Its about exploring and not being afraid to go ahead. Its about taking chances and making the best of opportunities, about doing everything you want to because you only live once.
"Destination Unknown".
You never know where you're headed and that's all part of the adventure.
I love the song.
After listening to it something seems to have clicked in my head and its made all the scattered pieces of my life fall into place. There are beautiful memories and painful ones and some which are beautiful and painful.
It reminds me of the past and what I've been through and where I am now, but it doesn't make me sad. Rather it reassures me that life's like this. Its the journey that matters. Every bit of it is something new. something that makes a very big difference. This is the way you live.You fall and you crawl and you break but you stand up on your feet again. You don't have regrets.
Life is the wind whipping your face, making you feel alive as you race across the highway. Coming at you at full force. The faster you go, the stronger the wind feels. If you stop it doesn't feel windy.

Here are the lyrics.

Destination Unknown.

I see life and it's passin' right before my eyes
And the past is the past don't regret it, time to realize
I need to walk on the wire just to catch my breath,
I don't know how or where but I'm goin' it's all that I have left

It don't matter where it takes me
Long as I can keep this feeling runnin' through, my soul

Never took this road before -- destination unknown
Oh oh oh ohohoh -- destination unknown
Won't be coming back this way gotta go it alone
Oh oh oh ohohoh -- destination unknown

See a chance gotta take it wanna meet my fate
'Cause the last thing I ever wanted was to find out it's too late
No way out when you're in it deeper than the night
There's a light at the end of the tunnel and I see it burning bright

It don't matter where it takes me
Long as I can keep this feeling soarin' through, my soul

Never took this road before -- destination unknown
Oh oh oh ohohoh -- destination unknown
Won't be comin' back this way gotta go it alone
Oh oh oh ohohoh -- destination unknown