Candle light

Dusk falls, the sky bathed sanguine
Sitting in silence by candlelight
Soft whispers of days forgotten
A journey through memories eaten away
I see your face in candlelight
It dances there illuminating bits of you
Flashes, never whole
Once dark, once bright
Never still.
There in the dancing darkness
Stories of life, secrets
Wrappped tightly in that old song
The one that will always play.


Cosmic twins, we are one
The stars bind us,
incarnations in parallel universes.

Beating about the bush.

Never beat about the bush. It's a waste of energy and doesn't help in the long run. :)

Rainbow gypsy.

I stand by the fork in the road

To say goodbye, to step a new way

To break through the black and white

and chase the rainbow

I will walk through the yellow meadows

Follow the birds to the green wood

And beyond I'll find the crystal lake

Where I'll drown the rusty box of Memory's last traces

Till it lays to rest in the deep blue grave.

I'll wait for the moon to spin me my wings

And then I'll fly far far away

To reach my new place in the cosmos

And there I'll stand and smile

And wave back and say

"Hello, how are you?"

Brain Damage.

My head is just SPINNING. I didn't know organic chemistry would make my head too feel like it was staggered, skewed, partially eclipsed and eclipsed.
For the time being I'm trying to get myself into a more stabilized orientation by getting sound waves of large amplitude to penetrate the system. Heard of sonotherapy? (I'm too lazy to look up whether a word like that exists already, I think it does. And if it doesn't(didn't), now it does! Hah.).
Anyway, I think I should sign off before I inflict further damage to the brains of the kindly souls who read my blog.
Goodbye.

4 down.

So we're midway through ISC and the last two days was a nightmare swallowing a >2000 page physics textbook. I was so saturated I'm so glad the exam is over! And I found it pretty decent, considering I hardly studied physics at all the whole year. We have 3 days before chem and I'm not going to do anything today. I need a break!
Porcupine Tree are God.

I got wiring loose inside my head
I got books that I never ever read
I got secrets in my garden shed
I got a scar where all my urges bled
I got people underneath my bed
I got a place where all my dreams are dead
Swim with me into your blackest eyes.

Fade to black

Erase.
Delete.
Obliviate.
Nothing ever happened at all.
Stranger was a best friend, best friend was a stranger.

No difference, they're all best friends.
But still crumbs of Wall remain, resisting destruction.

ISC!

So, ISC has officially begun. We had our first exam, physics practical today. It was funny the way everyone was absolutely certain we were going to get concave-convex but they gave us single convex! I mean the last week was crazy, with people scurrying around for focal lengths and learning up elaborate manipulative techniques(I mean, doing the experiment is simpler isn’t it?). Okay, so that’s done. There wasn’t much scope for manipulation in any case!
But I really think it’s torture to sit in that lab for a full 3 hours without being allowed to get out. I mean for the first time in my life I was wishing it was hotter! Not that I don’t like the weather, but the volume of a kidney is just about 450 cc and if you don’t sweat the water content in your body is so high that ADH secretion goes down and the distal convoluted tubules become impermeable to water! And even if you don’t understand any of the bio I rattled off I guess you get what I mean! Oh, and to make things worse, they made us sit an extra half an hour to make us watch the papers being packed. Human rights violation! :-P

Last 'last'.

We had to go back to school for our papers. It somehow felt so surreal walking those corridors, sitting in class. All the old stuff all over again. And you know, it was too weird coming back to a life I believed I had left behind. It was a strange feeling reliving moments I had bid a grand farewell to. It just wasn't right somehow. People were overjoyed, coming back again but to me, it was like going back in time, to something I didn't really want to go back to, not because I didn't like it but because it just didn't feel right that way. I remember something Anushka had said at our last assembly: there is a time and place for everything, and even if somehow we could stretch the days, it wouldn't be right. It was all so Deja vu.
Hyper little Sushi taking attendance and jumping about squealing at the top of her lungs, PDG and her dreary lectures, chem teacher and her wrongly overemphasized syllables, Dr.De and everything about her, Parvathy and the feasts and round-table-gossip conferences in her class while she taught a scattered few. Ishani's enormous computer project with algorithms written in a last minute frenzy using my only black pen(the only pen I had actually! :P), Ruvlina's tiffin, Lydia's madness..
It's hard to believe we dont even have a month left for exams to begin. Today, it sank in that school is really over. Today was the last of everything. The last 'last'.

Resurrection

Drowned in the storm but healed by the rain

I live again, reborn

Awoken to a peace long forgotten,

but as beautiful as ever before

Burned by flame, beautiful and dangerous

I am the phoenix, risen from my ashes

to a new day, a new world.

With a reason to love and believe

I fly above the clouds, the golden sun on my wings

Far away from the dark cavern I was enchained to for so song.

A new beginning.

P.S: I was stupid enough to think you were stupid. Thank god I was stupid. :)

What matters.

Not you. Not anymore.

I don't understand how this happened and why this happened and I don't want to, because I'm tired of understanding. I don't want to understand. I will just accept that somewhere something went very wrong. Maybe not as wrong as it could have been, but wronger than it should have been.
The change came too late. I waited and waited and waited and then..walked away. You don't know. How would you? I lost the game, I won it too. To you there was no game. It didn't matter. It doens't matter.

Fairy lights.

I don't know, I feel weird today. I'm bored, happy, sad, silly and broody at the same time. I've been seized by this sudden urge to make christmas cards for everyone and give everyone christmas presents. Something special, to make them remember me. It's been really long since I last actually made cards for anyone..

I somehow still miss christmas season in bangalore. Christmas was this huge affair and the christmas party at school was one of the biggest events of the year. We'd decorate our classrooms and move all the desks and chairs to make a dance floor, and dance we did! Being the choir was the 'in' thing(mainly because the choir uniforms were really pretty!). We did have a great choir. Choir was so much fun.

And the main thing was, it FELT like christmas. On christmas eve, you really FELT the magic in the air.

However, I do think christmas this year will be nice. It won't be like christmas, but it will be nice. :)

I'll wait there under the stars till our worlds come together

hand in hand we'll walk the brigde across forever.

The Last day.

So today was our last day of school, and to be honest, I would be lying if I said I’m really sad and I’m going to miss the school so badly I’m going to cry about it. But today was definitely one of the most memorable days ever at M.H.S. More memorable than the first day, probably. I had the time of my life. And yes, I was right about my sentiments towards school not really changing, because somehow I couldn’t work myself up to become very emotional like everyone else. I know I sound downright treacherous when I say I wasn't exactly very miserable, or that I wasn't analyzing every moment today, trying to live it one last time, like everyone else. Maybe I've become like that these days. It didn't really FEEL like anything.

My first day at M.H.S.

Class 9. My first reaction:"What is this place? It's all closed and grey and depressing." I hated it. I found everything so weird. The narrow dark corridors, after the sprawling grounds and trees of Bishop Cottons, one closed cage-like school building instead of little classrooms scattered around amidst a peaceful, beautiful green campus, the horrible red striped shirt, and omg no ties! But Miss Guha was wonderful. I remember the first day I just couldn't keep track of the time and I was very surprised that there was a short break after 2 periods and lunch at 11:40! My mother had given me pretty good food[it was chowmein I remember] but I didn't even know it was luch break! Akriti Sanghvi took me down garden and introduced me to an enormous gang of friends who seemed really nice, but I couldn't remember any of their names! First few weeks I would spend all my lunch breaks just staring out of the window onto the grey street and grey staring wistfully outside, hoping that it was just one bad dream and that I would wake up and find myself back in bangalore.

Then I remember in my second week of school we had a history test and I was the only one who got full marks in it. 

Of course, you can't possibly spend four years staying depressed and I began to like school. I made friends and I found people who had similar interests. Sarojini and I used to go in the same bus and she became one of my best friends. I thank Monjorika for introducing me to The Doors. [The evil girl, actually she made me fall in love with Jim Morrison and then she told me he was dead. :P]. Anushka, me and Monjorika went to watch Harry Potter[I think it was Goblet Of Fire] at City Centre and that was my first actual outing. 

Then I started getting into school programs and I would sing at almost every function. I really liked that. But I think our teachers day disaster can't go unmentioned. I guess it was in class 9. There were six of us and we'd planned a lot of harmonising and suff. I was supposed to be playing the keyboard as well. Problem was, the keyboard was kept off the stage and as a result everyone messed up their cues and I was the only one singing. Sarojini kept trying to look at me from stage, but they didn't start singing when they were supposed to. What a mess. We were all really sad and we went to Mrs.Kar and sang it for her and she liked it and she told us we'd get a chance to sing it at assembly one day. That assembly never ended up happening, but we sang it for our class. :-)

Oh, how can I forget the aerobics on sports day! The people round me were pretty robotic so I couldn't control my laughter even on the final day!

Class 10. Board year. And one of my best years. I wont forget the way geography torutred us. I mean, it's impossible to forget. I VOWED I wouldn't forget it. We spent more time making detailed plans about how we were going to make a bonfire with all our geography books after ICSE. Hehe. Okay, but then class 12 physics is equally torturous! But I can't make bonfire plans with them because most of my friends just love physics. They'll use chemistry for the bonfire. (Enough bonfire planning. Calcutta's actually too hot to have a bonfire.)

11 was the most eventful year of my school life and I think you'll get an idea of why I'm saying that if you read this blog. I learnt to grow up. I learnt. A LOT. 

I can't pretend to get all nostalgic because I don't feel that way, but there are some things that are very trademark-schoolday-ish. Like diving into each other's tiffin boxes and finishing their contents nanoseconds after opening them, burning things up in the chemistry lab and making pretty coloured solutions and precipitates, never doing maths in class, occasionally doing physics, teachers of all types, shapes and sizes, never finishing assignments on time, last minute filework, campaigning against tests and project deadlines.. :D

I know I hated school the last 1 or 2 months and I can't exactly say I miss it terribly and I'm sorry I felt that way, but the fact that 'school life' is over will take some time to sink in!

Some things I really enjoyed in school:

 Fests and practicing for them. For western music it was Sneha's place. Eastern music was a Shreya's place and I'd tell my dad to pick me up at a particular time and I always came out half an hour late and he always got really mad. :P. Shreya's music teacher Kanika Di helped us out immensely..she always encouraged us. Shreya would get really really nervous and I was completely the opposite and I would tell her "just go out there and have fun!". :) Well, I guess it was easy for me to say.. I've noticed I used get a lot less nervous while playing an instrument than singing. Now I don't actually get nervous much. :P 

I liked bio classes. Most of them. And I LOVED the section cutting practicals cuz I got to make really pretty designs with filter paper. :-)

Ruvlina's tiffin. She brought the most heavenly achar every day. Yumm..

Last week of school we had three tests!(YUCK!). But I had lots of fun playing the bass. Bass is just plain sexy I tell you. It's really sexy playing bass. The feeling is just awesome. You should try. It's WAAAAY better than guitar I feel. Hah. I totally fell in love with it. Sitar is heavenly, tabla is funky, keyboard is sophisticatedly beautiful, piano is simply beautiful, harmonica is lazy-bluesy-relaxingly soothing, drums is crazy-awesome,  guitar, well I didn't feel anything about it in particular, but bass is just downright sexy. No other word for it. :D I always thought that if I were in a band, in order of preference, I would be the vocalist, keyboardist and then drummer, but now the bass comes before the drums. But somehow I like to sing best of all. It's pretty hard to do serious keyboarding and sing lead though. If I could play bass AND sing lead, nothing like it! Okay, I'm dreaming again. :-P

We spent the morning practicing and all of a sudden we realized we had assembly with the Principal and we ran up four floors and huffed and puffed into the assembly LATE. Kar was giving a sort of presentation and we missed a bit of it. Missing a bit of your last assembly is SAD. Anyway, at the end, practically everyone went up to the podium to say something and they cried after that and there wasn't a single person with dry eyes. I was about the only one who didn't cry. And not crying when everyone else is, is SAD as well. It's frustrating being so unemotional sometimes.

Rest of the day we just clicked and clicked and clicked with our cameras, here there everywhere and then we had bio and Dr.De gave us a pretty nice lecture. :-). Rest of the day we ATE and ATE and ATE. And we still had food left. And then all of a sudden, an hour before the performance we realized that we didn't have a processor and guitar straps and we BADLY needed them and procuring them was a mad rat race...and then in the end it was all a waste cuz the distortion pedal didnt work!

It was fun, all of it...

If everyday in school was like this I would've missed it, sure!

Shuffle game.

Shuffle game rules:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to each question.
4. Cheating optional :P


How am I feeling today?
Hollow Years – Dream Theater.

[Okay, this is fun].

Will I get far in life?
PSP12 - Zero. 

[Sheesh.]

  How do my friends see me?
Truly Madly Deeply – Savage Garden. 

[No. No. No. No.]

Where will I get Married?
Photograph – Nickelback.

[Hahahaha!!]

What is my best friend's theme song?
Parallel Universe – RHCP. 

[True-ish! All my friends are alien-ish. :D I love them.]

What is the story of my life?
Sindbad the Sailor – Rock On!

[Okay! I didn’t sailing across the Enlgish Channel in a luxury cruise baot(I’m guessing, I don’t really remember too well)at the age of 6 qualified one to be an adventurous sea captain].

What was high school like?
Chartaal Ki Sawari – Ustad Zakir Hussain.

[I wouldn’t say that’s a bad approximation, because I spent most of my high school playing tabla at fests. It’s a simple enough taal to follow, even though it sounds immensely complicated and intricate. Which symbolizes life in high school?]

How am I going to get ahead in life?
Injection – Rise Against. 

[Yikes!]

What is the best thing about me?
By The Way – RHCP. 

[?? Well, I do use that phrase a lot though.]

How is today going to be?
Lines in the sand – Dream Theater. 

[That would better describe my brother’s day. He tried to plant orange seeds in the park today.]

What is in store for this weekend?
All Around The World – RHCP. 

[Wuhuuu! *dances*]

What song describes my parents?
Symphony of destruction – Megadeth. 

[LOL!]

My grandparents?
Call Me When You’re sober –Evanescence.

[Note : sober here meaning.. you know, sane]

How is my life going?
Bring Me to life – Evanescence 

[Okay. Kinda makes sense].

What song will play at my funeral?
My Immortal – Evanescence.

[O.M.G. Seriously. :-O ]

How does the world see me?
Annie’s song – John Denver. 

[Okay, this is FREAKY.]

Will I have a happy life?
School Of Rock.

[Yeah baby!! \m/]

What do my friends really think of me?
Roobaroo – Rang De Basanti.

[Really?]

Do people secretly lust after me?
Burn it Down – Alter Bridge. [?]

How can I make myself happy?
Re-Align – Godsmack. 

[Okay..]

What should I do with my life?
Come Together – Aerosmith.

[how?]

Will I ever have children?
Lips of an angel – Hinder 

[They’ll win beauty pageants I suppose.]

What is some good advice for me?
Wind of Change – Scorpoins. 

[I need to change? Hmph!!]

What is my signature dancing song?
Be Yourself – Audioslave.

[Yeah it’s one of the best for air-guitaring, air-bassing, air-drumming, and for crazy on-stage rockstar antics, if you count them as dance forms. And of course one of the best to sing. Awesome song.]

What do I think my current theme song is?
Creep – Radiohead. 

[Sort of. Except I don’t crib about being a ‘creep’, I like it !]

What does everyone else think my current theme song is?
Osmosis – Liquid Tension Experiment.

[LOL. Everyone’s taken my biology Olympiad attempt a bit too seriously I think.]

What type of men/women do you like?
Roadhouse Blues – The Doors

 [ooooh! Yes, I LOVE Jim Morrison. And I’d LOVE anybody who could sing like that. :P]
 

Describe your first date.

Hell’s Kitchen – Dream Theater.

[Thanks shuffle. When I go on my first date I’ll make doubly sure the date is a good cook/has sensitive enough olfactory nerves]

What is your personal religion?
Serenity - Godsmack. [:)]

What do you think of your current hometown?
Burning My Soul – Dream Theater.

 [I love this city. :)]

 What do you feel guilty about?
In My Darkest Hour – Megadeth.

[But oh how I lived my life for you
Still you'd turn away
Now as I die for you
My flesh still crawls as I breathe your name.   Maybe?]

What embarrasses you?
You not me – Dream Theater. 

[Well, yes. :P ]

What kind of restaurant would you open?
Far Away – Nickelback

[How about in the middle of the Galapagoes? Far away enough?]

 How do you feel about fall?
Californication – RHCP

[I’ve never been to California at fall! :(]

 What's your greatest fear?
Socha Hai – Rock On. 

[Sochne ki zaroorat hai? Please please forgive me, my hindi is really terrible. Yeah I do sometimes fear the fact that I think about things a lot and thinking scares me.]

 What's your biggest weakness?
How You Remind Me – Nickelback.

[I don’t want to start.]

 What was the last lie you told?
Lazarus – Porcupine Tree 

 [Liar you shuffle! In any case, I did NOT lie about being able to play it. Hmph!]

What's the biggest thing you learned in school?
Rag Yemanmanj(Tilak Shyam) – Pandit Ravi Shankhar 

[No I haven’t learnt that one! L. And not in school in any case.]

What did you dream your life would be like as a child?
Wonderwall – Oasis.

[As a ‘child’? Not really.]

What were you doing 10 years ago?
So Happy Together – The Beatles. 

[Lol]

What will you be doing in 10 years?
Rag Marwa(Puriya Kalyan) – Pandit Ravi Shankhar.

[WOW. I wish. I really wish.]


What does a cry for help from you sound like?
Highway Star – Deep Purple.

[Everyone would deliberately make sure I get into trouble then.]

More coming up.
 :D





 

The game[facebook]

Same Game. Only with Facebook this time.

1.Sayantoni Bandopadhyay.

2.Souravi

3.Anumita

4.Arka.

5.Medha

6.Shubhodip

7.Sudarshana

8.Sarojini

9.Nisha

10.Soham Chatterjee.

11.Sneha

12.Shubholina.

Q: When's the next time you're gonna see 4?
21st December(FIITJEE)

Q: Is number 8 pretty?
Yeah. J

Q: What was your first impression of number 10?
Decent at chemistry, helpful, draws aliens well.

Q: How did you meet 3?
Class 9 bangla classes J

Q: Is 11 your best friend?
Not really.

Q: Have you seen 5 in the last month?
Yeah!

Q: Do you think 2 has a crush on you?
No! lol.

Q: When was the last time you saw 12?
Last Friday or something.

Q: Have you ever been to 1's house?
Nope

Q: When's the next time you'll see 10?
No idea.

Q: Have you ever been to the movies with 4?
No.

Q: Have you ever gotten in trouble with 2?
No J. She’s too nice. J

Q: What do you and number 3 talk about the most?
Music. J

Q: Do you even know 9?
Yes I know her very well J

Q: Would you give number 3 a hug?
Of course! >:D<

Q: Are you in love with number 12?
Yikes, no.

Q: Do you know a secret about number 8?
Yes I do.

Q: Describe the relationship between number 9 and number 5.
I guess they both tried playing the guitar for a while.

Q: What is the best thing about your friendship with number 4?
K

Q: Have you ever danced with number 7?
No.

Q: How long have you known number 1?
A few months I guess.

Q: Have you ever been in a fight with number 8?
Hmmm..yes!

Q: Have you ever wanted to punch number 2 in the face?
Never!

Q: Has number 1 ever met your mother?
No.

Q: How did you meet number 6?

I don’t recall having met him actually.
Q: Did you ever accidentally physically hurt number 5?
No.

Q: What is the best memory you have with number 3?
Everything. She’s such a sweetheart :D

Q: Do you live close to 7?
No.

Q: Out of your top 12, which one would you say is the funniest?
Nisha.

Q: Who is the most flirtatious?
Don’t know!

Q: Say something nice about number 11.
She too is a good drummer!(all drummers at 11 eh?)

Q: Which one lives the farthest away?
Nisha L .Bangalore.

Q: Which one do you hang out with the most?
Sarojini.

Q: The quietest?
None of them are quiet.

Q: Have you travelled anywhere with number 8?
One or two parties.

 

 

The game.[orkut]

Have a look at your wall/scrapbook and make a note of the first 12 people, if the same person has posted twice only put them in once and add an extra person... I'm sure you get it, so it's the first twelve unique posters (just in case you still don't get it) then answer the questions below and post-in in a note form! Do the same yourself if you have been tagged in this note here.

1.Sayan

2.Riya

3.Ankita

4.Sutanwi

5.Ritabrata

6.Mephistopheles

7.Sayoni

8.Porky

9.Rohan

10.Ayan

11.Srinija

12.Ishani.

Q: When's the next time you're gonna see 4?
Saturday morning(probably).

Q: Is number 8 pretty?
N.O. :-|

Q: What was your first impression of number 10?
I don't remember actually!

Q: How did you meet 3?
Class 9, school!

Q: Is 11 your best friend?
Wouldn't say so.

Q: Have you seen 5 in the last month?
I think so(or was it the month before?)

Q: Do you think 2 has a crush on you?
LOL!! Definitely not!

Q: When was the last time you saw 12?
Ummm...monday I think.

Q: Have you ever been to 1's house?
Of course! I've eaten the most heavenly ilish and bhetki there AND broken a few windows playing cricket.

Q: When's the next time you'll see 10?
Saturday I guess.

Q: Have you ever been to the movies with 4?
No.

Q: Have you ever gotten in trouble with 2?
No! She's the last person I'd get into trouble with. :P

Q: What do you and number 3 talk about the most?
Umm..projects and files. :-|

Q: Do you even know 9?
Pretty well, I'd say.

Q: Would you give number 3 a hug?
I wouldn't mind.

Q: Are you in love with number 12?
Haw haw. 

Q: Do you know a secret about number 8?
Don't think so.

Q: Describe the relationship between number 9 and number 5.
They don't know each other.

Q: What is the best thing about your friendship with number 4?
She's nice to talk to during math classes. :)

Q: Have you ever danced with number 7?
No I don't think I have! But she dances well. 

Q: How long have you known number 1?
Since I was born!

Q: Have you ever been in a fight with number 8?
No. 

Q: Have you ever wanted to punch number 2 in the face?
NO!!

Q: Has number 1 ever met your mother?
Yeah.

Q: How did you meet number 6?
 FIITJEE. 

Q: Did you ever accidentally physically hurt number 5?
No.

Q: What is the best memory you have with number 3?
Her birthday party at south city this year. 

Q: Do you live close to 7?
No. :-(

Q: Out of your top 12, which one would you say is the funniest?
Rohan I guess.

Q: Who is the most flirtatious?
 ;-).

Q: Say something nice about number 11.
She's a good drummer?

Q: Which one lives the farthest away?
Right now, Sayan. =(

Q: Which one do you hang out with the most?
Ishani.

Q: The quietest?
Ishani.

Q: Have you travelled anywhere with number 8?
Sundarbans.

 

Well you know, a lot of people have been telling me that white doesn't suit my blog. Not that I care, of course, but I admit I'm beginning to get a bit tired of the white myself. But everyone has black blogs! I tried to change it back to black but it was looking very carroty(lots of green and orange) and I was too lazy to change all the text colours and stuff, so I decided to stay on with the white. 

Bus strike tomorrow, so I won't be able to go to school. I might be missing the bangla test. I would LIKE to miss the bangla test. Bangla is such a headache. 

I STILL don't want to go to school anymore. 

My father is filling in all my application forms. Scary. I got the results of my last FIITJEE test. VERY VERY scary. I got more than I expected though. Almost double. But they're still really horrible. I should stop even trying, actually!

I have a cold. :-(. Mother made lemon tea :-). 

I'm missing people. I haven't seen them in weeks. :-(. They dont even message. :-(

I remember phone numbers by the tunes they make while dialing them. 

[Random]

I can't believe I haven't watched the Matrix movies!

I'll have to watch them. All of them. 

I spent the whole day filling up people's diaries and it was odd to see how much I could write for people I thought I didn't know too well and surprisingly, how little I wrote for people I thought I really knew.

I called Sai, an old friend from bangalore today. It was her birthday. I spoke to her after around a year or something. It was nice. I'll try to go there once in may. It would be nice to go to Sweet Chariot again. It was a typical after-school hangout for all the schools in the area, like Haldirams is here. 

I really miss sports at Bishop Cottons. Sports here is pretty lame I find. (I know, people from MHS reading this are probably going to kill me, but trust me, if you've been to sports in Cottons, nothing compares to it). 

But I like calcutta. There are a lot of reasons for me wanting to stay here after 12:

1. I'll be able to drop in at school whenever I'm free and see the way things are going. J.A.M specially. I'd like to attend the school fests and stuff.

2. F.O.O.D.

3. Music classes.

And the reason I want to get away from here is that I want to start out again comepletely on my on, with no one there to tell me what to do. I want to be able to make friends on my own and be independant and live on my own. Because my whole friends circle in the last two years has been dominated by the few people I already knew, so I didn't really make much of an effort to make friends. 

My parents won't be too keen on letting me out of Calcutta, unless it's IIT(which is highly improbable) or NIT Durgapur or Rourkela. 

I'm really out of my mind. I haven't studied at all today. I'm actually beginning to get worried. 

I have a bangla test day after tomorrow. :-(

Two more weeks of school. Sigh.