Tuesday, 10 July 2007

I don't know why...

I don't know why
Llife becomes more complicated
Just as you think things are getting easier
I don't know why
The more you try to bring yourself back down to earth
Reality seems to fly further away from you
I don't know why
As time flies by,
You tend to delve deeper into the chasms of your mind
To be faced by unfathomable thoughts
To be assaulted by your dreams
To be wrecked by your own imagination

I don't know why I just can't hate you
Even though I try my best
I try to tell myself I don't care anymore
But I still know it's impossible

I don't know why I feel nothingness
When you say things that would make me smile
Why I feel like I'm at the edge of reason
Why there's no meaning left in 'love'.

I don't know why the thought of you
Still brings a smile to my face
But after I think of everything that's happened
The happiness gets washed away

I don't know why I feel
Like I don't belong to your world anymore
Like I'm an outsider peeping through the window
To the world I once used to belong in.
I don't belong
I feel that.
Or maybe I'm just overreacting.

I don't understand why
It hurts to love so much
Why I know I can escape the pain by hating you
But I can't escape the pain 'cause I can't hate.

I don't know why I feel the need
To live with my sorrow sometimes
To be wallow in my loneliness
Feeling the bliss of depression

I don't know why I care anymore
I don't know why I shouldn't care
I don't know why I ask myself all this
I don't know why life has to be like this...
I don't know why
And I never will know why.

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